Lea: Maybe you can point me in the right direction.
I read your discussion with Alana about angelic beings who incarnate.
In short, I have been told by three different psychic-intuitives that I am a “variety of angel” incarnated here.
I do have memories of comforting distressed souls in the soul realm — particularly after their life reviews — and I have memories of working with them and their guides to help them plan their next incarnations.
Naturally, I am interested in getting to the bottom of this! What I do know for sure is I have an insatiable desire to comfort and soothe others — always have! At the same time, I have always felt very, very different from others — almost like an anthropologist or missionary observing an unfamiliar tribe or something! I have always felt empathetically for others very, very deeply. Now that I have started to have these memories and now that several with psychic gifts have said my guides told them I was some type of angel — what should I do? I do truly wish to know who I am!
Kirk: Greetings, Lea. I’ll be happy to chat with you. We can learn into this conversation together as an interactive inquiry process.
My first impression is that you seem very clear. As you know, information provided by psychics isn’t always accurate. That said, I don’t have any sense that you are “giving away your power” or “believing everything you hear.” Instead, my sense is that the information you have a attracted resonates with your inner sense of self. That is, you are engaging your discernment abilities and the external information mirrors your internal knowing.
You have memories of times between lives–at least incarnated lives–that I consider to be an advanced level of awareness. Wonderful!
You seem clear about elements of your “life purpose“–that which gives you joy. And it feels to me like you’re aware of some of your gifts.
You’re sharing above isn’t problem-oriented, but you have asked me a question: “What should I do?” So, here’s your first question from me: “What would you LOVE to do?” Instead of a specific job or career, I’m asking what kind of qualities you seek in your “doing.” What kind of activities might excite and nourish your heart and mind?
If you like, play with these musings, and let me know what arises in your being.
Lea: What do I love to do?
I know I love to comfort and encourage others. Actually, in crowds I find myself searching for those in emotional distress — I can sense it — and then sending love and hope to them. Also, I feel very strongly about forgiveness. I feel compelled to encourage others to forgive. I just bought a car and I am having a bumper sticker made for it that reads: “Forgive Everyone.” That excites me!
Secondarily, creativity brings me joy. I love to compose poetry and fiction. Since I believe I am here to express love, I think I will keep working on creative projects that do that.
But the other thing I love presents a greater difficulty — I feel an incredible longing for Spirit and for contact with those in Spirit. I have felt, from childhood, that I missed “my people.” It feels as if they are a unit of souls who do similar work — not necessarily the core soul group that we read about in Destiny of Souls and the like. I sense “my people” are engaged in service as am I. I have never known for certain who these colleagues are and I still do not, but I definitely await the reunion. It is probably the hardest part of my life to keep both feet on the ground and concentrate on this incarnation. It was once said of me among my friends, “She’ll actually be so much happier as a spirit once she’s on the other side.” Keeping my longing under control and living the life I came here to live is my hardest task.
Kirk: You seem very clear about your values of comforting and encouraging others, as well as forgiveness and creativity. And you also seem clear about some ways to express what you value, that which is important to you.
I’d like to offer you some “homework” (home play) regarding your sense of wishing to feel more deeply connected to your “people. Have you learned how to craft positive affirmations and/or create useful visualizations? I’m imagining you might have one or both skills. If not, please let me know and I’ll include some links that will help.
My invitation is constructing an affirmation and/or creative visualization that presupposes constant connection (vs. separation) with your colleagues. Sure, you may one day experience some kind of “reunion” where you enjoy proximity in time/space, but this project is to learn your way into a somatic felt sense awareness of your “always already oneness” with this group, even when you are dwelling in a body. My encouragement is to build an affirmation and/or visualization that reminds you of this oneness beyond incarnation or time/space location.
If these sound / looks / feels useful to you, please let me know if you have any questions about how to proceed.
Lea: This is difficult, perhaps because as I write this tonight, my longing for connection to “My People” and to the soul realm is so intense that it’s psychically painful. I feel the way a bird must when everything within it strains to fly south, but it cannot because it is shut up in a box somewhere and must “tough out” the overwhelming urge to fly home. <long sigh>
But I do have a few coping measures, including the suggestion you gave me.
First, I know my name — my real name — the one I am called in the soul realm. When being “Lea” becomes hard, I remember my name and meditate on it. That helps.
Second, I try to focus on the people I am here to nurture and heal. If I indulge too much longing, I am in danger of self-pity, and I do not want to allow that. Being here is a wonderful chance to enjoy serving human beings. Serving them is a beautiful experience.
Third, I am working on your suggestion of “As if.” When I have those difficult moments, I build on a vague memory I have of being in some type of huddle with my colleagues and sharing, for lack of a better term, a group hug. I remember this and try to call it to greater vividness.
Fourth, I can meditate and “plug in” to the Almighty. As is true of all souls, God is my source and my resource. God is my origin, and I find the most comfort in letting myself get lost in God’s deep love.
I still feel, at times, a little disoriented and a little stranded. I would like more information about my soul’s history.
Kirk: Glad you’re finding my suggestions useful, combined with your many awarenesses.
Interesting that knowing your “spiritual name” is helpful to you. I’ve heard this from many people who share many of your experiences.
I like your perception of the relationship of self-pity to service, especially is you’re reminding yourself serve in self-loving and kind ways. In my view, you did choose to incarnate at the date, time, and place of your birth, and within your culture, environment, family system, body, etc. You might as well “bloom where you’re planted,” so to speak. Yes?
Cool that the “As If” frame of perceiving is a tool you’re wanting to more deeply explore. It’s very powerful, in my experience, and part of the “plugging in” process you described.
Regarding the disoriented/stranded experience, it can really help to do simple, somatic/body-oriented practices that connect your body to the earth. The Yoga sun salutation and Qigong movements come to mind, and of course, there are many others, most of which center around awareness of your breath.
It can be fun, even useful, to know some of your soul’s history. Mostly, it’s “mind” that likes to know this stuff. This isn’t a judgment of “mind”–I’m into loving my mind, along with all aspects of self, in and out of the body. If you seek at an intuitive reader, I encourage you to always retain your personal power — rather than abdicating it to an “expert” — and always use your own discernment to determine the information that feels valid for you, releasing what isn’t. It’s the rare psychic/intuitive who can read this type of information accurately. It’s very easy to just make things up — either as blatant cons/lies or as well-intention but inaccurate assessments — so I urge you to be very picky about your information sources.
I’ve been enjoying our chat. Is there anything with which I can help?
Lea: After much meditation and thought, I realize I am no longer in need of validation about the nature of my soul. It was indeed startling to me and at first confusing when I began to have so many people tell me my soul was angelic in nature. I was skeptical and seeking confirmations. The confirmations I was hoping and waiting for have come to me, and I am now satisfied. Now that I know who I am, I intend to turn my attention to the thousands of reasons I am incarnated here: the people who need my love and support. Although I myself do learn and grow each day, I know as deeply as it is possible to know *anything* that I am principally here to uplift others. That is my bliss! 🙂
Kirk: Wonderful. I enjoyed our dialogue. I hope the angels who are attracted to this article receive inspiration to even more deeply discover their authentic self.